Last week I had so much clarity about what I wanted. This week I’m seriously dazed and confused about what to do. There’s still no doubt that I want a special women in my life, but I’ve been struggling between going after “the one” and putting all my eggs in one basket. The woman I set my sights last week has been under the radar all week, which had me slip into doubt as to if I was on the right path. I sent her a message about 5 days ago after finding out from her best friend that she had left for Florida. It’s crazy what my mind can create, all the stories why she wouldn’t respond to my message to take her out for her birthday, knowing all along that she had just gone through a traumatic breakup. I had difficulty focusing on anything else, despite having a belt test that was taking place this weekend. What was different was that I didn’t panic, something that has haunted my past. You know, the stupid over-texting or calling when you don’t get an immediate response. For as much as I feel for this woman I’ve never come from a place of need.
Fast forward to Saturday, my Taekwondo belt test. I had to block out, and I did, all the distraction and doubt I created all week. The result; obtaining my high blue belt, with the support of my fellow martial artists.
Today, as I finished a Blade Warrior workshop, I received a pleasant surprise. My message was returned. Not only did she truly appreciate me remembering her birthday but accepted my offer to go out to dinner, albeit we will have to wait until I get back from Atlanta which is about three and a half weeks from now. They say patience is a virtue… well, I’m about to find out.