so (happily) overwhelmed by the questions posed to me from last week… and slightly fearful to answer because i think i know the answer to every question, and answering the questions means i get to address them. and that scares me. like what supercubby said, the fear of success may be greater than the fear of failure.
a very self-worthiness conversation. i think i can’t have it all. i don’t deserve it. or if i do get it all, i’ll lose it. maybe because i’ve lost it in the past, thinking you’re all good and everything changes like that (snap!). i’m committed to changing my way of thinking. i wanna figure out some goals around that…
that being said, i did have an awesome day, that not only supported my goals, but also exposed to me (again) how much of an influence my way of being and my energy can impact my life. i took this workshop on neuroscience for clinicians today. ahhh fuckin loooooooooooooove that shit! that was my favourite class in grad school so getting the chance to revisit it was so great.
the presenters spoke about meditation as well, and mindfulness. the awareness of your way of being and being present to your state of mind or feelings you are going through gives you the opportunity to channel your power… think of a positive experience- everything about that experience, the way you felt, smells, visuals, touch, sounds, sensations- when you’re dealing with shit, and that positive mindset can get you from i think i can, to, i did it!
but the most powerful thing from today, was during an ideomotor exercise. while holding a piece of string, with a block tied at the bottom, between my thumb and index finger, we were told to close our eyes and imagine the block swinging on the string forward and back, and without ANY movement, it began to go. then side to side… same fuckin thing. i was bloooooooooown away!
i’ve been thinking so much about the placebo effect, and how your mind is such a powerful thing if you only believe in yourself. it’s amazing the influences your belief system can have on every area of your life. the presenters today also spoke about patients that had been sick and were started on placebo medication that was “a super cure” and because the person believed it, they began to get better. another patient, as soon as he heard about a study discrediting his medication, what was working for him, began to show adverse effects.
i’m so… just… speechless about it! hahaha
because to me, really taking in that information is a fucking mind fuck. like trying to imagine how big the universe is… just incomputable
so i’ve challenged myself to change my way of thinking to, i can do it.
stats wise… i’m a little behind. have been doing my journaling inconsistently. i have compiled a ‘get to do’ list. crossed a couple things off today. meditation has been nonexistent. but i’m going to go into it with an “i can do this” attitude going forward.