This is my first blog post, ever. To my surprise, I am quite excited about it! The funny thing is writing is not my first love, or my second or third…okay, I hate it. I avoid everything I am not comfortable with. Fear has kept me in my comfort zone up until LP. When my son was born, I was ecstatic. I was also very afraid. I was stuck and I did not have a way out of my fear. I knew I had to make a change or he would become like me—always fearful.
Since LP, the adjective, courageous is in my contract. It is who I am. I am a warrior. The fear is still there, but it is not a consideration. I push through it and I think about what’s next. So why am I participating in PSP Life Cycle 8? I am in the drift. I am in my comfort zone. I feel both fearful and numb so I strike out at the people I love the most and I hide from everyone else. I am critical, impatient, and inconsiderate with both my husband and son. I want to get back to my husband and son, my family and friends. I want to get back to me.