The election results rattled me for many reasons. One theme that emerged is related to my major goal, so I will share only that information. I apologize in advance if it offends or triggers anyone who doesn’t share my political beliefs.
For myself, my friends, family and colleagues this has been nothing short of a trauma. Upon realizing this, I immediately starting to think about ways that I can help repair the situation, and help people heal. For me, my career has always been a reflection of my values and the opportunity to change the world. How I responded to this situation was a direct reflection of my career aspirations.
If this had occurred a few years ago I would have tried to work for, or volunteer for, a non-profit organization that either looked at root causes of the issues, helped create change or or spread education and awareness about politics and gender issues. Today, I didn’t even think about that.
These days I organically think about two alternative methods of healing – to either gather a group (like a work group) to discuss the issues or to work one-on-one with people to listen to their feelings. I thought through best practices for both and was genuinely curious to hear from people. Today made me realize that my professional interests have changed over the past 10 years. I no longer want to run the kind of programs and events that I once did for non-profit organizations nor do I find them as meaningful or effective as I once did. My shift in career aspirations is directly related to the emotional journey I have been on these past few years.
I still don’t know what I want going forward but today was a nice data point on which I can reflect.
This information makes me feel even worse about struggling with my other goal. My second goal is to improve my professional dynamics which is motivated by a desire to have my actions align with my vision for how I want to treat people and to improve my work environment for all. I am struggling to muster up sympathy and empathy. Instead, I experience a lot of impatience, resistance, and judgement. No one wins.