I’m going to skimp on the mood update this week but will say that I’m still struggling and seriously considering going back on meds. I’m working on not framing it as a failure but rather as an experiment from which I learned a lot. And boy, do I like the idea of feeling more balanced and not feeling like I’m going to cry at any moment.
On the job front, I had a great 2nd interview today with the two other employees of the company for which I’ve been prematurely counting chickens. I’m feeling really excited about this opportunity. Again, I’m trying to I’m not to count those chickens, but damn, it’s hard. I also have an interview on Monday with a different company for a job that I just applied to yesterday. Feeling good about being in action and makes things happen.
I think I’m doing a pretty decent job with creating play/fun even with all the mixed emotions. I have a second date tonight and have been noticing that I have all kinds of stories around worthiness with this particular guy. I get to gate check those mofo’s and create fun tonight!