Week 1 has proved to be a powerful week for me. It started strong with daily exercise and joining Weight Watchers (WW). I record food and exercise- assigning it the appropriate point value. I like this program because it is all about choices. So, far I am doing great with the points and staying on track. I have momentum and feel fired up by the group. Cold mornings make getting in the pool a mental challenge and today I was encouraged by the inspiration posted in chat. Evenings we go for walks or I go to yoga. I’ve had some breakthroughs about when I am selling out on myself. I realized that in the past I would try to help Garrick and sacrifice myself. For example, one morning before the cycle started I wanted to work out but decided not to because I saw that Garrick was really tired and didn’t want to wake him. Garrick was up late the night before either on his phone or watching TV. Mia (our 6 month old) was already awake and if I left to work out, I would be waking up Garrick to care for Mia. I didn’t have enough time that morning to care for Mia, get me ready for work and exercise. I didn’t wake up Garrick and realized later that my choice not to wake him was also me choosing not to exercise that morning. In the end I don’t think that little bit of sleep was really a help and I’m done with the martyr thing. I am choosing to prioritize myself and my self-care. It benefits my family for me to be healthier so time to stop selling out on myself.
Mia is amazing and all I want to do is snuggle with her. I need to be careful about using her as an excuse. My goal is to put her in the stroller and take her with me next time- just need to wake up early enough to feed her and get her ready for a morning adventure with mom before work.
What I plan to work on this week is connection (with you all and creating exercise buddies), intention, meditation and maintenance. Week 2- here I come!