First off, I’m out of integrity with my blogging days. Thankfully, bad stuff & resistance didn’t come up for me…more so a combination of circumstances (story) and committing to something else over this. There’s a great story here, and a good lesson, both of which I’ll get to later on, but first, I get o be in touch with everyone here.
I didn’t blog on Sunday – what’s more, I knew I wouldn’t be able to as I started a 3-day holiday on Friday night that ended Monday evening, and during that time I was back-to-back for a Sabbath-like 72 hour period with no phones, electricity, etc. Knowing that I couldn’t, I should have been in touch with the group to inform them that I couldn’t blog, or I should have blogged on Friday in advance of the holiday. I did neither.
For anyone who was tracking me, reading my blog posts, or like SS, pulling double duty and following up with those who missed their blog day, you may have thought I was in resistance to an issue, that I was pulling back, that I wasn’t committed to the cycle, and more. It may also have impacted you to see that I went silent and without warning missed my blog day even as I was the integrity co-captain previously, and you may wonder about that role or benefit of the role.
On my end, the impact on me may be that I risk being casual for the rest of the cycle, feeling hypocritical, that I shirk other responsibilities, including those not attached to the cycle.
The vision that I have for myself is to finish strong – it’s to have consistency in my day and in my week to fulfill my goals as I designed them. The structure is to see what concrete items from my PSP are up next and to set aside the time to accomplish them, today, tomorrow, the day after, etc.
Having said that, here are the next steps for me:
- Financial – setting aside time to refine the budget. Naomi and I reviewed a version already, but there were some holes and I get to scrub them a bit so that we can make some decisions around shift some expenses.
- Learning – I set up learning with a partner but am behind on my personal learning for September; I get to look at ways to do that, perhaps in the early morning.
- Relationship – I’ve found a few ways to demonstrate my intention to Naomi; we went on a lovely walk on Monday and more to come this holiday weekend.
- Patience – Hmm…I’ve been tried and didn’t fully live up to my commitment, so some things to work on here.
- Career – No action in 2 weeks, I get to reapproach.
Separately, I had a great call with my buddy last Thursday where he reminded me of the concept of the Survival Mindset and I realized that I was embodying it when I beat up on myself as I had been.
The story with that I referenced above had to do with getting to PA in advance of 6 others who were joining for this past holiday weekend…and finding out at 11:45am that we didn’t have – and weren’t going to have – any water for the next 3 days.
I frantically reached the plumber, who walked me through what I had to do; but I got stuck in the mud, trapped under the deck, trying to turn locked knobs and other things, all while trying to avoid inhaling too much cat pee. It was awful. Nevertheless we had at least a trickle of water when all was said and done.
That said, Friday was crazy & hectic, and for 1/2 a second I remembered that I should blog on Friday as I couldn’t on Sunday. Instead, the thought flew out as quickly as it arrived, and I kept on focusing on preparing food and water for the holiday. This story gets crazier, but the point is that my commitment to having things ready for the holiday and for the group was senior to me than getting in a short post, and thus, I was out of commitment.
The lesson? Don’t wait until a Friday morning before a 3-day holiday to have the plumber turn on the water for the first time after the winter…when it turns out that something is broken, there’s no time to fix it.