So I made my habit tracker on the 20th – and I love it.
I love having little rituals that I indulge in every day. And it feels like that – a treat. An indulgence. And all this stuff is good for me which is such a win.
I’m working ever so slowly on the content piece. It may have been more realistic to have completed two pieces instead of 3 this cycle – but I’m still going to go for the 3. They say the first one is the hardest so – there you go.
So overall, feeling good.
I’m growing happy with myself again which is a relief because I thought I would be sad for a much more prolonged period. I mean it definitely comes and goes in waves, but I’ve really been feeling myself and the reputation that I’ve built and am building as time goes on. I like me. And other people like me which is a pretty sweet bonus.
By next week – I will have published that gosh forsaken LinkedIn article.
Wish me luck! xoxox
So did I do what I said I would do:
I have been planning my days.
I still need to complete my LinkedIn article.
Still need to write my treatment for my speaking reel.
But I am in motion. And that feels good.
I told my small group that I felt like burning my life down, and I still sort of feel that way, so I can rise up from ashes and dust off my shoulders, bright and shiny.
Momentum is building slowly but surely. And it’s really powered by intention and follow through. Even if I don’t feel like it. Which is the bigger piece, building the discipline to break through the “I don’t feel like it.” Because waiting for inspiration and motivation doesn’t make a life.
So blog one for Cycle 12. What to share?
Well to remind y’all the goals are planning ahead and creating content.
Goal 1 of planning has been going smoothly and has not surprisingly – but surprisingly- has caused me to have some very productive days. I am thinking about work to be done and getting it done.
I think the next step for me is to look even higher level and fit my to-dos in strategic plans for work and life. Right now, I was focusing on building the habit. And it’s satisfying to me to look ahead and cross things off the list.
For my 2nd goal – I completed my TM speech and now need to edit. But I was really pleased with myself for forcing myself to complete the speech. I really wanted to just say “Fuck it” and go to bed – but that is living in comfort and comfort doesn’t get you anywhere. So I finished it and it really wasn’t that bad.
So my goal for next week – think higher level about my to-dos. And outline my piece for LinkedIn.
So this cycle is over. What have I accomplished?
A small amount of traction on my future aspirations.
A little bit of work on my website. I got paid to speak. I applied for a speaking gig. I minimized my time on social media- deleted Instagram off my phone. Had a very informational interview. Dipped my toe into grad school research.
There was a lot that I didn’t do. But woulda, coulda, shoulda- I am not going to beat myself up about that.
I choose celebration.
Until next time loves.
So I think I found my thing. The way I get to make public speaking my thing. The way I get to share my skill set with the world.
At first I was thinking grad school – which still might happen. But then I stumbled across this woman on CreativeLive called Vanessa van Edwards. And it seems that she made a living off of teaching people about body language and she is not a doctor. She built her business on pure charisma and inquisitiveness. And now she’s offering a teacher training on how to train in the methodology she created. And it’s sort of crazy I feel like pieces are coming together. And she hasn’t released pricing for her class yet I imagine it’ll be a couple of thousands of dollars. But it seems like a smart way to get some training under my belt or at least a place that start. I am incredibly thrilled that this exists and it gives me an idea where I can go. I’ve always been told that I’m really good with people and then I’m a great public speaker and this model- this business – she built for herself around how to have impactful social interactions is so impressive and replicable.
So I think I’m going to give it a go. Because again, this is in the vein of what I want to do with my life. I want to train people and how to give better presentations how to make lasting impressions and all that good stuff. So let’s see how it goes!
P.s. I wrote this entire blog entry with the voice to text function on my phone. So it may be an incredibly easy way for people who are not necessarily interested in typing all the thoughts and would rather just speak but don’t want to be videoed. This is the method for you. I wish I could record a video to show you what my phone is doing – its literally writing down everything I’m saying for me so yeah this is great technology is awesome. Love figuring out different ways to make my life easier man. Hahaha. It also even wrote the hahaha for me all I had to do is go hahaha. You can’t make this stuff up.
I just came home from Atlanta from the last conference of the year. And man, does it feel good. I am feeling a lot less frantic as the year is winding down.
Less stressed at work. I now staunchly believe that I’ve done a good job and have positively impacted the organization. I feel like my compensation conversation with my boss went well and that I’ll be even more financially secure in the new year.
Less stressed in my relationship. I’m settling into love. I was being a bit sabotage-y in the beginning. Being hyper critical and questioning all of my and his actions. Not helpful. I read some helpful information on what generates criticism. Typically it’s a way to deflect something going on within and it’s oft said that we criticize what we see in our own selves. I was also blaming him for a lifestyle choices that I made. No one put a gun to my head and said “You must spend and eat more than you should. And sleep- nah you don’t need that.” This morning, even though I stayed at his place – I got up early. Did my priming (shout out to Empress!), ate breakfast- it was great. Nothing was stopping me before except for me and my excuses disguised as blaming someone else. So yeah- no more of that. I still get to do me and flourish. And he wants me to. He was thrilled when I told him about my plans for my morning routine. “Oh yeah, absolutely babe” were his words.
Getting re-energized in my goals. Making small progress. Working and talking about my website and future plans. Dreaming big again. It’s pretty awesome.
I made my mini list for my desire to be an org psyc consultant. I even purchased an online course about how to start your own consultancy. I am also working on my personal website. Deleted the Instagram app off of my phone. Started reading articles on my pocket app instead. Got ClassPass, started working out again. So yeah- it’s happening.
It’s all going. I just gotta keep plugging along.
I don’t know what it is about today. Maybe it was the weather, but I am feeling myself get back in the game.
Here’s what I said would do by Nov 6 for my goal #1:
- Create a list of requirements to become an org psychology consultant.
- Write down the 1st action step to acquiring each of the required traits.
Have I done that? …nope. Will I? Yes!
And I commit to having it done by Friday of this week.
I just finished up talking to my dad and having my buddy call tonight and it’s really put into perspective what I get to do next.
Set priorities and boundaries. Get into massive action. All the stuff that we know, but have to constantly reminder ourselves to do.
(I also declared that I will be Debt and Financially Free by 33 (and earning 6 figures). And I like the feel of that big audacious goal.)
Feeling re-energized and it’s helpful that it’s getting colder so that I can focus on getting things done versus fun warm weather distractions.
Love you all!