This is my first blog post in cycle 11; I plan on re-establishing integrity with everyone shortly, via email. However, I wanted to share what’s been going on with me and why I’ve been absent. I’ve been very stressed and have had a lot going on the last month. I left my job and started a new one. My resignation and departure from my previous job was tumultuous and left me feeling incomplete in several ways. I’m very grateful because since I started my new job in a hospital last week, it has been going very well, thus far. We’ve just concluded the back-to-back Jewish holidays, traveling to be with family. I met my boyfriend’s parents for the first time (we’ve been together 16 months)- which went very well. My boyfriend and I are planning on moving in together in January, and while exciting, it has also been bringing various things to the surface, necessitating discussion, arguments and emotions. Talking about the future can cause some tension. I’m currently in a fight with my mother, because she chooses to be unsupportive and cold, and this makes me angry and sad. In addition to my mom, Andrew and I are getting a lot of pressure put on us from other family members, as well. Financial concerns, trying to spend quality time with my boo, being under-the-weather, trying to maintain friendships and family relationships, trying to get enough sleep and time for self-care, can be exhausting. As I noted on my third weekend almost 2 years ago, I am my own worst enemy, and I’ve completely turned inwards and have not reached out for support (because I don’t even know what I need). I shut down when I feel overwhelmed. And being PSPLife has been a part of that too, until now. End ‘story.’
In terms of my PSP goals, I have completed my first 30-day Isagenix weight loss challenge and have lost almost 7 lbs. and 13 inches. While this is less than what I wanted to lose (i.e. 12-15 lbs for the first 30 days), I am NOT beating myself up, since I faced multiple challenges this month, with the Jewish holidays, family bar mitzvah, a wedding, going away gatherings for my old job, etc. I did order my supplies for the next 30-day challenge, and will determine when I’m starting this week! While I have not been tracking all of my meals consistently in MyFitnessPal, I do use it sometimes and have been making fairly wise choices when it comes to food. A lot of my cravings have gone away. And I’m proud of the discipline I’ve shown and saying “no, thank you” to various goodies, alcohol, food, etc.
For my exercise goal, I haven’t been in action enough. I did go to yoga once last week, but missed the week prior. I did one day of exercise on the 8Fit app (10 min) but have not been consistent about the 4x/week. My head is my biggest challenge- getting the motivation to push myself to work out, even if I have limited time (that’s the point of this goal!).
I look forward to seeing what I can create in the next 4 days, until I blog again, on time!