Not going to lie friends, things are hard right now. I’ve been wishing I could come back to this post when I feel better, when I can offer something more inspirational, more “positive,” but alas, commitment.
So here is my truth. I’ve wavered on my health and creativity commitment because of the usual, money issues. I’m tired of struggling with money. I’ve been struggling with money for most of my life. Even when I made money my goal on PSP, I still did not work through enough apparently. I am still struggling.
To tell you the full truth, I did write a song and a powerful ass poem this week. I’ve sang to myself daily. I feel lines of poems forming in my mind more naturally now. Almost constantly I experience the world around me in poetry or song. That is pretty beautiful isn’t it? I’ve also gone on a walk everyday this week. Mostly because I’ve been caring for a dog, but the walks have been really beneficial for my health too. These walks also get me to spend more time in nature, with the turning orange, yellow, and red leaves in the beautiful fall of Colorado and mountain backdrops. I’ve also said no to things I have not wanted to do, and communicated a clear boundary to my new roommate.
Well what do you know? I’m feeling inspired now. There is beauty in the full truth! Even though I have not done every detail of my goals as I outlined, it’s like the goals are naturally doing me. I haven’t needed to plan the creativity of the poems that are just coming to me, or the walks, or the communication of boundaries and saying no. They have just happened. I’m glad I came on here to write anyways and gave myself the opportunity to be inspired!
Next week I’m inspiration captain and it feels like it is much needed for me to be in the role. I’m committing to sharing the powerful ass poem I wrote on video through the chat tomorrow! Wahhhhh! Also here’s some picture from one of my walks. Enjoy 🙂